How Long Can You Hold Your Breath?

To start of this blog, I thought of these lyrics as I pondered the thoughts of this post.
Lyrics by Brandi Carlile:
Dreams, I have dreams when I'm awake when I'm asleep 
And you, you are in my Dreams 
You're underneath my skin, how am I so weak?


 Dreams, the outlet to all of our thoughts. The secret confession rooms for our hearts. The best theater shows you'll ever see. Our subconscious' playground. The truths hidden in our heart that we didn't even realize were there. Disneyland claims it's a place where anything can happen but they're lying. Your dreams are where anything can happen: unseen, unrated, possible or impossible, crazy, weird and twisted.


And now in my dreams, I can feel the weight
I can just come clean 


 I share my room with my roommate. She has been the one who inspired me to write this. The inspiration came out of the dark, silence of the night. This silence soon turned into full sentences coming out of her mouth while she slept. This odd habit of hers happens EVERY SINGLE NIGHT, yes, it does, lol. It's to the point now where it doesn't startle me at all. Honestly, once I move out, it's going to be a weird adjustment not hearing her talk in the middle of the night. 


 Anyway, the things she says aren't important. They range from old locks, to computers, to her saying my name last night; along with all the other words I never remembered because I was too asleep to actually memorize them. Every morning I explain what she's said and ask her if she remembers her dreams. She claims she never remembers any of her dreams.


 Here's where I break this down: What if we have dreams from our subconscious that happen while we're sleeping that we never remember but actually leave emotions behind. Remember, these are the dreams you don't realize you had. You don't for a second know you even had a dream. For example: let's say one of these mysterious dreams was a fight with your best friend. You wake up and are really upset but you have no idea why and the only one you seem peeved at is your best friend but you don't know where it's coming from. Maybe even emotions that don't show up until later in life or maybe ones that build up inside everyday. It could explain all those days we wake up and say "it's just one of those days." We never know why we have those days but there's some underlying emotion we can't put our finger on.


 These unknown dreams could create no emotions at all, considering I'm sure my roommates story about an old lock not working or how they could just use a computer, aren't going to cause her any issues. Well maybe, haha. For some of us, like myself, who have dreams that they do remember or who have a lot of anxiety or stress, may tend to have subconscious dreams that torture our emotions without us even knowing. 


Dreams...they could be great, but they could also be detrimental. A place of healing or a place of torture. 


Mind, can you read my mind?
Has it come undone, am I showin' signs? 

This is all just stuff to think about. Obviously, I didn't research anything. This is all just coming out of nowhere.

Side note for Tori - I started off with the title "Dreams" and laughed because of our conversation about titles. ha.