Middle Ground

It's a hard life being a good friend. First of all, it's not an easy thing to do. To always be there for them, to treat them with the upmost respect, to make sure you help them when they are in need, to stop what you're doing to comfort them, to encourage them, etc. Once you actually have that down pack, your friends tend to just expect that of you because they wouldn't expect any less. If you're being a consistently good friend and screw up once, it's like you committed the worst crime in the world because they would never have expected that. That's why people who aren't religious get so upset at Christians because they think Christians are supposed to be perfect beings and when they fudge up, they are considered hypocritical. 


Now if you're the type of friend that doesn't meet really any of those expectations. Where people don't really consider you a friend but more of an acquaintance, your situation is different. At some point, people won't expect anything of you anymore and when you actually do-do something nice, kind or more friendly, it means the world because that's not what you would usually do. It has some exponentially higher meaning. 


Maybe I have to try being both so that nothing is expected of me and kind gestures are still considered meaningful.