Thankful

In the past, I believed I was more than enough for someone. That I had all or more of the qualities most people don't have. Thought I was someone who would always love more than everyone else. Assumed my compassion for people would be enough for the person I was with. I always assumed I was the best person to be in a relationship with. That others should be jealous they don't have me.

As I've embarked in this relationship, I find myself never feeling any of those things. I feel quite the opposite. "Enough", the word I can't seem to get out of my mind. Can I be enough for you? Do I have qualities that are different than other people? Better than other people? Can I love you more than anything? Will I be able to be there for you through the thick and thin?

You tell me I'm wonderful, that I'm great, that you think I'm pretty awesome. I don't respond because I don't believe it. You're right, I expect myself to be so much more. I know I'm capable of more and when I can't be that, I get myself down. Though, I know myself, and I know that you are better at me than a lot of things when it comes to a relationship. I know there will be days when I'll wake up and feel numb to the world and to you. Yet, you want to push through it and you want to stay here for me, because you think I'm worth it...and I can't appreciate that any more than I do.