Maybe. I'll wash away.

"Maybe"

I don't wanna be the one to say goodbye
But I will, I will, I will
I don't wanna sit on the pavement while you fly
But I will, I will, oh yes I will

'Cause maybe in the future, you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back to me

I don't wanna be the first to let it go
But I know, I know, I know
If you have the last hands that I want to hold
Then I know I've got to let them go

'Cause maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away
Everything till you come home to me

Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back
In the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back around
Maybe in the future you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back

Oh, the only way to really know is to really let it go
Maybe you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
You're gonna come back to me, you're gonna come back to me
You're gonna come back to me

My heart feels like it is slowly and painfully mining it's way out through my chest

I hope you don't read this blog anymore. If you are reading this, I can't apologize because it is my personal blog. But sometimes I can't help but get something out unless I write it down or yell it at the top of my lungs.

but...

I miss you more than I've ever missed anyone in my life. My body walks around numb waiting for a flame to ignite it's skin and wake me up. I'm still waiting...I'm still waiting.

I just watched this movie and I wonder how much you relate. It pulled at the deep strings of my heart and leaves me knowing that I'm still "stretching out those 8 minutes."

Moments

I'm fine.

Everything is wasted without you.

I'll still swing on.

Time goes slow.

Time moves fast.

The best was taken away.

The best is yet to come.

Forever.

Never.

Wallflower

" it's like when you're excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, an they make you so mad. And all you want is to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means you're happy, too...I understand the end of that poem. And I never wanted to. You have to believe me."