I love alliterations. In case you don't know.
This morning, I went to my meeting and then took a nice walk over to the GIVE center to get a scholarship filled out. The people I needed weren't there so I have to go back in about an hour. I then went to the financial aid office to see my favorite person, Kay Biddick. I worked with financial aid my freshman and sophomore year of college. All the women who work there mean so much to me. Kay is basically my other grandmother :). After that, I went to the business office to do some business, haha.
I then went to BBT to deposit some monies and as I was about to get my receipt and leave when the guy behind the counter says, "have a lucky weekend!" I stared at him for a second and said, "thanks?" That was an odd phrase to say. Who says that?
It got me thinking because at some point during my college career, I decided I no longer believed in luck and was always peeved when someone said, "Good luck on your test." Although, I've come to the conclusion that luck is just a label for things that are awesome and happen unexpectedly. Call it fate, call it luck, call it whatever you want but basically it is real. We all just call it what we want to. Fate is sort of different though.
If you've read about God then you may know that He gives people the freedom to choose what they do and want. So fate is partly our choice and partly the world mixing together. Things are only labeled as fate after they happen. Maybe it was just coincidence. Fate, coincidence, call it whatever you want, it's still the same thing. I guess it's all about how you want to label it. Guess I need to stop getting annoyed with the... "good luck on your test"... phrase.
But, I am now really happy that he said to have a lucky weekend. Now I'm going to see if I can't find me some "luck/fate/coincidence/amazing, unexpected occurrences" this weekend.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Not the Usual Blog Post
I feel like I have something to say but I can't put my finger on it. I thought maybe if I just started writing then something would slip it's way onto my fingertips and have enough strength to push the keys to type. I should be really scared right now, I have a test tomorrow. I didn't study too much today. Spent a lot of time laughing and doing a whole lotta procrastinating. It was marvelous! And it was this way because I had so much fun and I wasn't stressed at all. This is what concerns me. (Tori would say that).
Gosh, there's something else I need to say. Ugh, anyway I feel like there's someone I should share with you. I don't know how many people follow my blog because a lot of people view it but I only have 6 followers. Which is totally fine as long as people keep reading my blog. The thing is, this blog isn't about me really. It's about what I see and believe and think but it's not that personal. Although, this blog post is going to be personal.
So this person, I have known for a LONG time. Someone who has meant so many different things to me and has made me extremely upset and extremely loved. When I was younger, I never thought I'd ever really get to know this person. I didn't think it was possible. When I moved away from her, things changed. We began to converse and it was very weird and hard for me at first. We've slowly gotten to know each other and are now really great friends despite the fact she lives in Texas. This person is my awesome sister, Felicia.
I don't think many of my friends even know I have a sister (sorry, Flea). This is why I'm writing this blog. Although, we don't get to talk very much, I love her to death and I do wish she was closer. I see my friends with their siblings all the time and I get pretty emotional. She is three years older than me, gorgeous, encouraging, hard working, creative and inspiring...to say the least. We have both changed so much since we left each other at two ends of the United States. We grew up having a terrible relationship with each other, and finally having a great one apart from each other. It goes to show that siblings were created with unconditional love. It's as if nothing can break it no matter what. I've called her the most horrific terms and she's done the same. We've had our trials and tribulations but we made it through and now were together as family should be. She means so much to me and now you know I have a sister, haha.
Well, that's my sister :D And that's the end of this blog post.
Gosh, there's something else I need to say. Ugh, anyway I feel like there's someone I should share with you. I don't know how many people follow my blog because a lot of people view it but I only have 6 followers. Which is totally fine as long as people keep reading my blog. The thing is, this blog isn't about me really. It's about what I see and believe and think but it's not that personal. Although, this blog post is going to be personal.
So this person, I have known for a LONG time. Someone who has meant so many different things to me and has made me extremely upset and extremely loved. When I was younger, I never thought I'd ever really get to know this person. I didn't think it was possible. When I moved away from her, things changed. We began to converse and it was very weird and hard for me at first. We've slowly gotten to know each other and are now really great friends despite the fact she lives in Texas. This person is my awesome sister, Felicia.
I don't think many of my friends even know I have a sister (sorry, Flea). This is why I'm writing this blog. Although, we don't get to talk very much, I love her to death and I do wish she was closer. I see my friends with their siblings all the time and I get pretty emotional. She is three years older than me, gorgeous, encouraging, hard working, creative and inspiring...to say the least. We have both changed so much since we left each other at two ends of the United States. We grew up having a terrible relationship with each other, and finally having a great one apart from each other. It goes to show that siblings were created with unconditional love. It's as if nothing can break it no matter what. I've called her the most horrific terms and she's done the same. We've had our trials and tribulations but we made it through and now were together as family should be. She means so much to me and now you know I have a sister, haha.
Well, that's my sister :D And that's the end of this blog post.
WOAH
So I was watching a wedding video and I realized something I want to do before I get married. I want my fiance to stop shaving and looking all nice at least 2 weeks before our wedding so that on our wedding day, he can get all shaved up and nice looking and I'll be stunned when he walks in and he'll be amazed at how I look with my hair and makeup all did. yeah?....YEAH :D
Monday, March 7, 2011
Spiral That Never Ends
Have you ever had an idea in your head that you were on both sides with: you thought was bad but also good? And you try to separate the two thoughts about the subject but you can't. It makes no sense at all because it basically makes you a hypocrite.
Let's take Marijuana for an example. You won't ever try it because you know it causes lung issues and can make your mind do crazy stuff but when someone asks you why you won't do it, you don't really have an answer. Or maybe they ask you why you think it's so bad but you don't know why, you just think it is. You could care less who does it and you don't support it but you also don't-NOT support it. You're indifferent. They can smoke all the marijuana they want, but you can't. Or they can booty dance all they want and you don't care, but you can't do it.
There's this issue in my mind that I just can't get past. I'm not a hypocrite but my mind tells me that I am. It says "this is totally okay, just not for you."
The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function.
F. Scott Fitzgerald
I feel like I should write something. A lot of crazy things happened today but a lot of great things have happened too but their all inside me and I'm not sure how to explain them. I'm just really happy right now and I got all cute and dressed up. That doesn't happen very often so if you want to come see me, I'm at blackbird reading about Enrique! haha.
My tummy is rumbling. I only ate a bagel and chocolate pudding today....bad I know :\
I don't know what else to say, except come see me!
My tummy is rumbling. I only ate a bagel and chocolate pudding today....bad I know :\
I don't know what else to say, except come see me!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Rhema
These 8 year old girl named Rhema lost her mother 3 years ago to Ovarian Cancer.
She started singing like her mother and spreading the gospel with her music.
Listen to this: Amazing Grace
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Seasons of My Life
As I was driving down the road, passing barren trees, and falling leaves, the rain sprinkled across my windshield. It brought on the thought of the constant changing weather. The really hot, sweating weather we've had, to the perfect warmth with a breeze weather, to the rainy, chilly weather we have now. I've come to realize that my life really does have its seasons. I believe we all go through seasons.
Nature has a very similar life to ours, in the sense of seasons, except the fact that handle it with ease due to their adaptive qualities. We can't exactly prepare ourselves for the seasons we go through. Their not in perfect timing like that of the yearly seasons.
I find a tree, snapped in half, lying in the street. A minor mishap in the life of this tree. Soon enough, the tree will be cut down and moved off the road. Within a week, no one will remember the tree was ever there and within a year, it'll be forgotten forever. We all have these incidents that are easy to forget. Sometimes though, we have seasons that remain scars forever in our minds.
I was told a story in high school that I've never been able to forget. It wasn't a story in my season but a story in someone else's. There was a family going home from church one morning. The infant was in the backseat of the van crying so mom went to the back to comfort the child. As the father kept driving, the most unbelievable thing occurred. A tree had fallen at the perfect time, angle, speed to hit the back of the van and end the lives of two wonderful people. This man lost his family in one second. This created a new season in his life that will change it forever.
Seasons are meant for change and growth. In Spring/Summer, the flowers and trees bloom. In Fall/Winter, the leaves fall and the flowers die. Our seasons are very similar. We have our ups and downs, we have our broken hearts and depressions. We also have our joys and elated times. If we never encountered hardships, we would have no need to grow. We'd be the same ALL the time. Every time we go through something difficult, we get out of it stronger. Our characters change and we mold into a different self. If we never grew, we'd never encounter this growing process. Life is all about change, growing, learning, living.
I have to remind myself that hard times are good. Pain makes me thankful for happiness. When I lose everything, I'm more thankful for the things I gain. Everything we encounter has a different meaning and our minds are opened to new things. I'm glad life isn't constant and consistent.
Bring on the seasons!
Nature has a very similar life to ours, in the sense of seasons, except the fact that handle it with ease due to their adaptive qualities. We can't exactly prepare ourselves for the seasons we go through. Their not in perfect timing like that of the yearly seasons.
I find a tree, snapped in half, lying in the street. A minor mishap in the life of this tree. Soon enough, the tree will be cut down and moved off the road. Within a week, no one will remember the tree was ever there and within a year, it'll be forgotten forever. We all have these incidents that are easy to forget. Sometimes though, we have seasons that remain scars forever in our minds.
I was told a story in high school that I've never been able to forget. It wasn't a story in my season but a story in someone else's. There was a family going home from church one morning. The infant was in the backseat of the van crying so mom went to the back to comfort the child. As the father kept driving, the most unbelievable thing occurred. A tree had fallen at the perfect time, angle, speed to hit the back of the van and end the lives of two wonderful people. This man lost his family in one second. This created a new season in his life that will change it forever.
Seasons are meant for change and growth. In Spring/Summer, the flowers and trees bloom. In Fall/Winter, the leaves fall and the flowers die. Our seasons are very similar. We have our ups and downs, we have our broken hearts and depressions. We also have our joys and elated times. If we never encountered hardships, we would have no need to grow. We'd be the same ALL the time. Every time we go through something difficult, we get out of it stronger. Our characters change and we mold into a different self. If we never grew, we'd never encounter this growing process. Life is all about change, growing, learning, living.
I have to remind myself that hard times are good. Pain makes me thankful for happiness. When I lose everything, I'm more thankful for the things I gain. Everything we encounter has a different meaning and our minds are opened to new things. I'm glad life isn't constant and consistent.
Bring on the seasons!
Friday, March 4, 2011
How Does That Make You Feel?
This has been one hard day for me. This morning's conference really got inside me and tore me up. I was about to cry but I said I wouldn't. I didn't even know why I wanted to cry. We had talked about a lot but nothing that hit me hard. She didn't send me out with a challenge as she usually does, but I chose to challenge myself anyway. I've already gone over most of the things we talked about and tried to figure out what to do about them. That and figure out who I am. Fun stuff.
As the day progresses, it gets better. I don't feel upset like I did earlier and I'm getting a lot of work done. I took one of my quizzes and did really well on it, so I'm thankful for that.
I'm in the mood to do something spontaneous.
As the day progresses, it gets better. I don't feel upset like I did earlier and I'm getting a lot of work done. I took one of my quizzes and did really well on it, so I'm thankful for that.
I'm in the mood to do something spontaneous.
Please Vote For My Aunt!
My Aunt Judy had battled breast cancer 3 times and she has run over 130 breast cancer marathons! She even carried the torch at the 2002 Olympics.
Read her story here:
http://www.drdonnica.com/champions/00004477.htm
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THANK YOU!!!
Read her story here:
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Living With My Ghost
Back and forth
Like a pendulum
We go here and there
Each with our own ambitions, beliefs and experiences
We stop and talk
We walk by and never say a word
Everything we touch, touches something else
We do not stand still
We cannot stand still
The more answers we find, the more questions we have
The more we understand, the more it doesn't make sense
We throw ourselves into pain
And we inflict pain on others
When will we learn?
History has taught us nothing but everything all at once
The world is ever changing
We are on a mission to find ourselves
The selves we already are
We found ourselves just as we lost ourselves
We are and we aren't
We must stop to go
We must lose to find
We must die to live
Back and forth, back and forth
Like a pendulum
We go here and there
Each with our own ambitions, beliefs and experiences
We stop and talk
We walk by and never say a word
Everything we touch, touches something else
We do not stand still
We cannot stand still
The more answers we find, the more questions we have
The more we understand, the more it doesn't make sense
We throw ourselves into pain
And we inflict pain on others
When will we learn?
History has taught us nothing but everything all at once
The world is ever changing
We are on a mission to find ourselves
The selves we already are
We found ourselves just as we lost ourselves
We are and we aren't
We must stop to go
We must lose to find
We must die to live
Back and forth, back and forth
I Can Feel the Rain Really Well Today
Today's Horoscope
The topic of the day is knowledge and learning. Did you study the field you really wanted to? Do you feel bad about not having attended such-and-such school or program? If these issues are uppermost on your mind today, remember that your creativity has little to do with the degrees you hold. It has everything to do with how you use your skills and knowledge to better the world.
I did not read this until just now and it's already something that I thought about today. It was around 9:55 that I picked up a magazine. It was a magazine sitting on a table in the waiting room. It was about golfing. I know, why would I pick up a golfing magazine? Well, most people don't know that I played varsity golf in high school. I really loved it and it is something very nostalgic for me. My dad taught me how to golf growing up. We have so many stories. While I was looking through the magazine, I realized how much I really miss the game. How much I really miss my dad but how awesome it would have been to be a professional golfer...if I was even good enough for that.
I've been questioning my life lately. I seem to always be doing it. I keep thinking about my major and English, photography, languages, sports, etc. Am I doing what I really love? The answer is: yes. I love nursing and wouldn't trade it for anything.
Like I mentioned before, these horoscopes are really encouraging to me. It says that I'm thinking about these things and although I am, it has nothing to do with me not liking my degree but how I am using the skill of golfing, nursing, English, languages, and photography to better the world.
I just feel so blessed right now. I also feel so small right now. I feel upset right now. I feel alive right now. I feel...now.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Clinicals & Church
Clinical days are like church days. You have to wake up early and really don't want to. You know you have to go and want to go but you'd rather sleep most of the time. You get up, get dressed and ready. Then when you get there, you get all comfortable and see people you haven't seen in a while and meet new people. After that, you start to accept being there. During the day/sermon you're really learning a lot and opening your mind to new things and how people live. By the end of the day/sermon you are so glad that you got up and went because all of your troubles seem to fade away. You have this crazy high from learning about people/Jesus and what wonderful things are in the world despite the hurt and pain. I hate getting up early for it, but I'm always glad I got up to do it!
Also, I wrote a blog post a while back that talked about those people who let you go and most of the time you don't realize it? Well, there's this person that I'm pretty sure has let me go, for good reasons at that. Now that I've realized this, it has made me so thankful for that. If you're reading this, thank you for letting me go!! :)
Also, I wrote a blog post a while back that talked about those people who let you go and most of the time you don't realize it? Well, there's this person that I'm pretty sure has let me go, for good reasons at that. Now that I've realized this, it has made me so thankful for that. If you're reading this, thank you for letting me go!! :)
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