Today in class, we all had the pleasure of watching a video about abuse and neglect. I'm finding it harder and harder to listen to videos that describe such painful experiences. I'm not sure if it's due to the fact that I've heard all about abuse and that I'd rather not keep watching videos about it because their difficult to watch. Maybe it's because I'd rather be in denial about knowing how often it goes on because then I'm more likely to change my major to be a social worker. I just can't watch something like that and not want to change the world and everything about it. It's easier for me to stand back and pretend it's not going on. That sounds horrible, I know, but even as a nurse I'll be able to look out for abuse. It won't be as though I'm totally ignoring it all together.
Really, it's just about how passionate I am. If I care about something then I go full force. It's all or nothing. So it's hard for me to balance my passions and desires. I'm not in the place at the moment where I can go out and find kids who need help. That's not my job. Yet, it's hard for me to stand back and watch it all unfold before my eyes and this is why I can't watch videos like this anymore. Especially because I've been through things like that and I can't stand knowing there are other people out there who have it worse than I ever did.
I tend to carry other people's hurt and pain around. I've been really good lately about not doing that though. So kudos to me :D
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