Talking Out Loud

   "No, it's not going to hurt. Don't be such a baby. Be a man!"..... "Yes, it will!! It's a boo-boo just like when I was a kid. I'd get in the shower and it'd burn like heck." Then I realized I was having a conversation .... with myself. No, this isn't the first time I've made this recognition. Although, it is the first time I've decided to dwell more on it's complexities, than usual. At one point, I even said, "Natalie and I aren't going to do that anymore." I said it in my head which almost made it three people.
   Why do we talk out loud in our minds? Why can I hear my voice when it's not being used literally? It's interesting how we can remember voices. When I think about certain people and things they've said or something they write me, I read it as they would say it. Their personalities are so evident in the way the speak. I really enjoy that. Though, I have my own voice in my head, which isn't actually my voice. It's the interpretation of my voice along with the echo inside my head. That's why when we actually hear ourselves through a video and wonder why we don't actually sound like we think we do, we get confused. When we talk, it causes a vibration in our head so we're actually hearing mixed sounds. You probably already knew that.
    I was just so flabbergasted by the thought of having a conversation with myself. How could I have contradicting opinions and views. How could I debate with myself? We do it everyday though, through the choices we make, etc. Technically, I don't necessarily believe in two opposing views, I'm just talking through the negative and positives of both. Maybe I do this more than others. I tend to side with both sides of any argument. I put myself in both shoes and find understand in both and a misunderstanding in both. Same as the good and bad in all things. It keeps me from getting upset as well. That's also probably why I'm the mediator in my family and sometimes my friends. It's quite entertaining to listen to myself argue with myself. I think it's great. It doesn't happen out loud that often though. Usually I don't even know I'm doing it. So today, it was extra obvious. Maybe it's all the vitamins I'm taking. I've been taking Ginkgo Biloba which helps more blood get to your brain, increasing the oxygenation to your brain and supposedly helping your memory. Thing is, there's actually no research to back up the memory part but from nursing school, I know that getting blood to your brain is a huge part of health, thinking, growing and healing of the brain.
    Did you know there are vitamins to lift your mood? Yep, go check 'em out. I've never used them, but if you are interested, they are there.

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